i shall grow and grow..

I am thankful for every girl I’ve had the pleasure of dating in my lifetime. Although some instances turned out worse than others, I learned from each and every one of them.

That being said, I do somewhat regret dating one girl in particular.. Not because of her, but because of how it hurt other people. She was one of my good friend Shaun’s ex-girlfriend, and it hurt our friendship pretty badly and I don’t think it will ever be the same because I violated his trust. It also hurt a special girl I was talking to at the time, who was much more important to me than my friend’s ex. I was just too young and dumb to realize it. But hey, we all make mistakes. I just wish I hadn’t hurt my friends like I did.

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riding bikes to a park, lying in the grass, picnic, throwing the frisbee. opening a bottle of wine and having a beautiful girl cook for me. then enjoying each other’s company for the rest of the evening. something like that

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Self-destruction is what I do best.

People have no right to place judgment on me. I’m lucky to still be standing after all I’ve been through. I am doing the best I can, and that is just fine with me. I know I’m not perfect; I know I have flaws. But I’m trying. I’m trying to live my life. Put yourself in my shoes; persevere through the challenges and struggles I’ve faced; and then you can judge me. The choices I’ve made.. there’s no going back. What I choose to do feels right at the moment, and that’s all that matters.

I’ve got to look out for what’s best for me. Nothing has ever come easy for me. I’ve learned I just have to look out for myself. I can’t help how my life has changed me. All I can do is look ahead and keep trying to the best of my ability. People judge me just because they don’t understand me, or what I have been through.

Sometimes I do wish I was able to just live a normal life(whatever that means.)

But God has made me who I am for a reason. And only He  can judge me.

I’m making the most out of my life. I’m still growing. And I’m completely confident that God has someone that will keep me happy for the rest of my life. Deep down, I do feel remorse for those that I have hurt, and I am truly sorry. But I have been hurt in ways you can’t imagine, and I’m scared to feel that hurt again. I’m still recovering.

So, before you decide on what type of person I am.. Put yourself in my shoes.

Life is never easy, but it goes on..

I’m very thankful for all the ones close to me; That love me for who I am; Those I can empathize with and understand me best. Those people are the ones that give me reason to keep trying every day. I love you all.

Thank you, from both of us.

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Usually. I’m brutally honest. But sometimes my head gets in the way of my heart and I say things I don’t mean.

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